so... to follow up on my last bitchy post I have some funny, random, crazy things happen today that I thought I'd share...
1) one of the boys I nanny got left at school after the bus left without him. I know this is sad as well as funny because he had to go to the bathroom really bad and told his brother to let the bus driver know to wait for him. Well apparently he took too long and she left without him. Once he realized what had happened he went to the office where they called his dad and his dad went to pick him up. I guess the funny part is, when I got the brother off of the bus I just stared at him, waiting for him to burst out with a "He didn't get on the bus! The bus driver left without him!" But nothing of the sort came out of his mouth. After waiting 5 minutes for him to realize his brother wasn't with him, I asked him if he was missing something. He replied, "No, I bought lunch today" thinking I meant his lunch box. I asked "what about your brother?" His reply was wide eyes as he turned in every direction expecting his brother to walk off the bus that had already left down the street. All I could do was laugh because he didn't even realize his brother wasn't on the bus! I know thats a mean thing to say but it's just so-gosh-darn cute to make up!
2) on the way home I heard a song called Pants on the radio where one of the lines was "she can wear the pants as long as I get to take 'em off". Who comes up with these lines?! LOL
3) In my half-dead state of exhaustion I must not have locked one of my dogs' crate door because upon returning home, I go to let them out in our bedroom and my boy, Boss, is on our bed wagging his tail at me. I was shocked and surprised to see him there, then it turned to regret as I hurridly rushed around the room to see what he might have gotten into or peed on. Nothing. I was then thoroughly impressed with him. Maybe I'll start leaving them out.
So I will close with saying that it is POURING here and the rain is not supposed to let up any time soon because there's talk of some serious flooding tomorrow. Can we say "No school"? I kind of hope so. That way I can sleep in and get some things done around the house that I've been putting off. Or I could just use the day for me to relax, take a bubble bath, cook, bake, watch a whole bunch of TV and do nothing. Either way it would be nice. If there is school tomorrow, then it sucks to be me because I have to drive through pretty much ALL of the low-lying areas of town to get to the house where I nanny. Back home, in NH, we did a Snow Dance so there would be no school. Here, I do the Heavy Rain Dance so some flooding happens so I can have a day off. lol I think I'm worse than the kids!
September 29, 2010
You know the saying...
.... don't go to bed mad?
well I did last night. Long story short.... hubby had the day off, got to sleep in, get a video game he wanted then came to work with me where he complained a majority of the time of a headache and exhaustion. HELLO!?!?! I got up that morning early and went to work all DAY, worked ALL DAY the day before, have a headache myself, been bleeding heavily out of my hoohah when I'm not supposed to be which I think is making me anemic causing me to be moody and even more tired than usual! Did I mention I'm a nanny? Staying home all day for two days in a row entertaining sick children can take it's toll on you. YOU had the DAY OFF!!!! YOU slept in! And now you're going to bed early and barely spoke a word to me once I got home. Seriously within 45 minutes of me being home from work (he left early because of his headache... and yes he did take medicine to help it) he went upstairs to bed! It was 7:30pm!!! I ate dinner, took care of the dogs, stayed up and watched Glee BY MYSELF!!!! I had had two very long days of work; I myself wasn't feeling great and you're complaining like a little child and not taking into consideration that I might want to spend some time with my husband! Alone! For some adult conversation!!!
I understand that maybe I should be giving him some slack for not feeling well, and been more supportive of him. But never did I ever express these angry feelings towards him last night. So I did give him slack. I never mentioned any of this to him and was actually in agreement that he go to bed early. But after he left last night... it all just started to fester inside me and made me angry as hell at him! Now maybe this is crazy hormones talking right now in anger, but in all honesty, I just wanted a little attention. It seems like everyone around me was sick and I was taking care of them with no one to take care of me! I put everyone else's needs before mine these last two days. I stayed all day monday and tuesday with sick children seeing to their every need for medicine, tissues, lunch and entertainment. Now I was having to do it with my husband. I know that maybe this wouldn't be such an issue with me if I had just come out and told him that I wasn't feeling well myself but after all his complaining, I thought "what's the use?". I thought that even if he knew about me not feeling well, he'd still be not feeling well and still need things himself.
When hubby left this morning for duty I did kiss him goodbye and told him I loved him, but I still wish he was the kind of guy that would pick up on the subtle hints that I really don't feel like being his mother and caring for his lazy butt after I'd cared for two 7 years olds who were sick for two days. It was just too much for me. And it's just too much for me to be bleeding like I am... I seriously think it's making me anemic. I've never been more tired in my life! I think this is a factor to take into consideration of why my fuse is so short on this topic.
I know some of you may say.... "wow... she's a bitch for not taking care of her husband." I want you to know that I will probably never tell him about how I was angry with him over this because I feel like it's trivial and it's just a waste of time to bring it up and agrue about it. So that's why I've posted my feelings here. To vent and get them out of my system so I can let it go and move on. In no way shape or form do I plan to hold a grudge against him for this. It's not his fault, he didn't really do anything wrong. How could he? He didn't know. The blame is all mine. So I won't be saying anything and I just needed to vent about this frustration. And some of the origin of this issue might have been some jealousy that I was working overtime while being tired and he had the day off. Also feeling like he might have been a little ungrateful for his day off. I would have been hella grateful for a day off after those two days of 10 hour days! (I love my job, don't get me wrong. But some days are just long and it takes a toll on you.)
So see. You can go to bed mad. I guess the only way it works is when only one of you knows that you're mad. 'Cause when you wake up, sometimes it's all gone and you can just move on without giving it another thought.
well I did last night. Long story short.... hubby had the day off, got to sleep in, get a video game he wanted then came to work with me where he complained a majority of the time of a headache and exhaustion. HELLO!?!?! I got up that morning early and went to work all DAY, worked ALL DAY the day before, have a headache myself, been bleeding heavily out of my hoohah when I'm not supposed to be which I think is making me anemic causing me to be moody and even more tired than usual! Did I mention I'm a nanny? Staying home all day for two days in a row entertaining sick children can take it's toll on you. YOU had the DAY OFF!!!! YOU slept in! And now you're going to bed early and barely spoke a word to me once I got home. Seriously within 45 minutes of me being home from work (he left early because of his headache... and yes he did take medicine to help it) he went upstairs to bed! It was 7:30pm!!! I ate dinner, took care of the dogs, stayed up and watched Glee BY MYSELF!!!! I had had two very long days of work; I myself wasn't feeling great and you're complaining like a little child and not taking into consideration that I might want to spend some time with my husband! Alone! For some adult conversation!!!
I understand that maybe I should be giving him some slack for not feeling well, and been more supportive of him. But never did I ever express these angry feelings towards him last night. So I did give him slack. I never mentioned any of this to him and was actually in agreement that he go to bed early. But after he left last night... it all just started to fester inside me and made me angry as hell at him! Now maybe this is crazy hormones talking right now in anger, but in all honesty, I just wanted a little attention. It seems like everyone around me was sick and I was taking care of them with no one to take care of me! I put everyone else's needs before mine these last two days. I stayed all day monday and tuesday with sick children seeing to their every need for medicine, tissues, lunch and entertainment. Now I was having to do it with my husband. I know that maybe this wouldn't be such an issue with me if I had just come out and told him that I wasn't feeling well myself but after all his complaining, I thought "what's the use?". I thought that even if he knew about me not feeling well, he'd still be not feeling well and still need things himself.
When hubby left this morning for duty I did kiss him goodbye and told him I loved him, but I still wish he was the kind of guy that would pick up on the subtle hints that I really don't feel like being his mother and caring for his lazy butt after I'd cared for two 7 years olds who were sick for two days. It was just too much for me. And it's just too much for me to be bleeding like I am... I seriously think it's making me anemic. I've never been more tired in my life! I think this is a factor to take into consideration of why my fuse is so short on this topic.
I know some of you may say.... "wow... she's a bitch for not taking care of her husband." I want you to know that I will probably never tell him about how I was angry with him over this because I feel like it's trivial and it's just a waste of time to bring it up and agrue about it. So that's why I've posted my feelings here. To vent and get them out of my system so I can let it go and move on. In no way shape or form do I plan to hold a grudge against him for this. It's not his fault, he didn't really do anything wrong. How could he? He didn't know. The blame is all mine. So I won't be saying anything and I just needed to vent about this frustration. And some of the origin of this issue might have been some jealousy that I was working overtime while being tired and he had the day off. Also feeling like he might have been a little ungrateful for his day off. I would have been hella grateful for a day off after those two days of 10 hour days! (I love my job, don't get me wrong. But some days are just long and it takes a toll on you.)
So see. You can go to bed mad. I guess the only way it works is when only one of you knows that you're mad. 'Cause when you wake up, sometimes it's all gone and you can just move on without giving it another thought.
September 27, 2010
complete unload of information
ok... So I fully and shamefully admit I have neglected my blog. I have not posted once in a span of about 40 days (give or take a day... sorry too tired to do the actual math). So here's what's been going on.
Hubby came home from an underway and I was ECSTATIC!!!! IT felt so good to have him home! He even planned a wonderful get away weekend for our anniversary! That weekend away was wonderful too. We spent Friday through Sunday at a beautiful, secluded B&B near Charlottesville, VA. We went to a couple different Wineries for tastings and came back with some wonderful wines. We also went and saw the Natural Bridge which is just an awe-filled sight to see. We had a wonderful, fancy dinner out on our actual anniversary! It was some of the best Italian we've ever had! We plan to go back soon because it was just not enough time to really enjoy the area and the B&B itself.
The boys I nanny have gone back to school, so I am back to working Monday through Friday. But I get my mid-mornings back to do anything I might need to do.
My youngest beagle had a false pregnancy! OMG! How freakin' annoyed and depressed was I when I heard?! My dog convinced herself that she was pregnant even though she wasn't; so that just an interesting adventure that threw me into a mini-depression because here I am TTC for over a year now and no results. Then there's my dog, as nuts and crazy as she is, panting heavily because she thinks she's about to birth some pups! I was so stressed out about it, I couldn't do anything but laugh! Whatever. I'm over that and thankfully so is she.
** DISCLAIMER! DISCLAIMER! What you are about to read may not be for the faint of heart, or those who do not wish to read about "female issues" or medical problems!
My doc has put me on Metformin. Man, those first 3 weeks were HORRIBLE!!! My stomache HATED me! But I've now been on it for over a month and things have calmed down. I still have some moments of upset tummy problems if I have too much sugar. But I try not to eat a ton of sugar anyways because of my PCOS; which has helped me lose weight! I've lost about 6 pounds now! I'm thrilled! All I've been doing is trying to make better choices in terms of what i'm eating and how MUCH i'm eating.
But my new issue in life is that I had AF from September 7th to the 14th and now she's visiting again. I don't know if this is a side affect of my medication or what, but it is a pain in my ass! (excuse my language) So if I'm supposed to have better odds getting pregnant by having AF every two weeks, I have a SERIOUS issue with that! And because I'm losing so much blood so often, I'm constantly tired! In the last week and a half, I think I've taken a nap every day except for like 3 days. For a while I thought it might be implantation bleeding, but then it got heavier so I knew it couldn't be. I just feel so much pressure to get pregnant right now because hubby is deploying at the beginning of next year for 6 to 9 months and our "offical" year of trying (according to our doc) ends in December. So essentially our TTC status would be put on hold for the time he is gone. Then we'd be reffered to a specialist where it would take MONTHS to get into just to talk about our medical histories and to run tests and go through some counseling! So who knows when we'd actually start any type of treatments!!! So I feel pressure to conceive naturally before the end of December so we don't have to wait practically a whole year before anything else is done. Also there's a possibility of hubby getting transferred after this deployment which would mean moving and finding a new doctor, etc. It would just be the most complicated thing ever if it didn't happen before he deploys... not that it isn't already. It doesn't help that hubby will be gone for a couple WEEKS soon and then it'll be the holiday season and things will get crazy and hectic since we'll be trying to celebrate holidays and prepare for the deployment. Ugh. this leads me to my next point....
hubby leaves soon. I hate saying that. I hate thinking about it. I hate that he has to go. I think about how miserable I felt (feeling like I didn't have anyone to hang out with or anything the ENTIRE time he was gone for only 40 days) and now relating that to a FULL DEPLOYMENT! ugh. let's just say i'm not looking forward to it... but I know it's going to be here before I know it! I mean it's almost October now. Soon he'll leave again for another underway for a couple weeks. Then it'll time for us to go to Chicago for my friend's wedding I'm in. Then shortly after that, it'll be Thanksgiving. Then it'll be December and time will be taken up by Christmas shopping and solidifying plans for the holidays and buying the last minute essentials for his deployment. Then actual Christmas and then New Years and then he's gone shortly after that! (*oh if anyone feels i'm disobeying OPSEC rules, I'm not. I know because I haven't said dates or even a time frame or a range of dates. It has all be in relation to events or holidays but never an actual time frame other than how long the deployment is, which everyone knows anyways.)
Oh! the other thing that happened was that our roommate moved out. He told hubby as we were preparing to leave for our weekend getaway. He said he didn't know when but it would be soon, so hubby assumed 2 weeks since that is the standard agreed upon time of notice. When we got back, we heard from a mutual friend that he had already moved most of his stuff out. We were a little more than upset. First of all, he never actually TOLD ME; he told hubby and then hubby told me. Then we found out from someone else that his stuff was practically gone. And lastly, that was definitly NOT 2 weeks notice. Hubby and I knew he wasn't going to live with us forever. I mean we're married and he's a single guy in his mid-twenties about to get out of the Navy. We're not dumb, nor would we have been mad or offended if he had just come to us and said "hey, I'm moving out." But not giving us 2 weeks notice was not cool. We've always been fair in terms of rent and the house and let him know what was going on and tried to include him in anything we were doing. But we were just hurt that he couldn't have come to us sooner... and if it truly was a last minute decision then let us come to an agreement together. I mean we're all adults... let's handle it like such instead of moving out behind our backs.
anyways... some good news for you now! Hubby and I bought tickets to a Carolina Panther's game. We're really excited! He's never been to a Panthers game before (his fav NFL team) and I've never been to a pro-anything game before! I can't wait!
Alright so I do sincerely apologize for the serious neglect of my blog! I hope to keep you all (or should I say the few of you) informed in a much more consistant manor. Thank you to anyone who actually does read this blog. I appreciate it. Until next time...
(which I hope will be sooner rather than later)
Hubby came home from an underway and I was ECSTATIC!!!! IT felt so good to have him home! He even planned a wonderful get away weekend for our anniversary! That weekend away was wonderful too. We spent Friday through Sunday at a beautiful, secluded B&B near Charlottesville, VA. We went to a couple different Wineries for tastings and came back with some wonderful wines. We also went and saw the Natural Bridge which is just an awe-filled sight to see. We had a wonderful, fancy dinner out on our actual anniversary! It was some of the best Italian we've ever had! We plan to go back soon because it was just not enough time to really enjoy the area and the B&B itself.
The boys I nanny have gone back to school, so I am back to working Monday through Friday. But I get my mid-mornings back to do anything I might need to do.
My youngest beagle had a false pregnancy! OMG! How freakin' annoyed and depressed was I when I heard?! My dog convinced herself that she was pregnant even though she wasn't; so that just an interesting adventure that threw me into a mini-depression because here I am TTC for over a year now and no results. Then there's my dog, as nuts and crazy as she is, panting heavily because she thinks she's about to birth some pups! I was so stressed out about it, I couldn't do anything but laugh! Whatever. I'm over that and thankfully so is she.
** DISCLAIMER! DISCLAIMER! What you are about to read may not be for the faint of heart, or those who do not wish to read about "female issues" or medical problems!
My doc has put me on Metformin. Man, those first 3 weeks were HORRIBLE!!! My stomache HATED me! But I've now been on it for over a month and things have calmed down. I still have some moments of upset tummy problems if I have too much sugar. But I try not to eat a ton of sugar anyways because of my PCOS; which has helped me lose weight! I've lost about 6 pounds now! I'm thrilled! All I've been doing is trying to make better choices in terms of what i'm eating and how MUCH i'm eating.
But my new issue in life is that I had AF from September 7th to the 14th and now she's visiting again. I don't know if this is a side affect of my medication or what, but it is a pain in my ass! (excuse my language) So if I'm supposed to have better odds getting pregnant by having AF every two weeks, I have a SERIOUS issue with that! And because I'm losing so much blood so often, I'm constantly tired! In the last week and a half, I think I've taken a nap every day except for like 3 days. For a while I thought it might be implantation bleeding, but then it got heavier so I knew it couldn't be. I just feel so much pressure to get pregnant right now because hubby is deploying at the beginning of next year for 6 to 9 months and our "offical" year of trying (according to our doc) ends in December. So essentially our TTC status would be put on hold for the time he is gone. Then we'd be reffered to a specialist where it would take MONTHS to get into just to talk about our medical histories and to run tests and go through some counseling! So who knows when we'd actually start any type of treatments!!! So I feel pressure to conceive naturally before the end of December so we don't have to wait practically a whole year before anything else is done. Also there's a possibility of hubby getting transferred after this deployment which would mean moving and finding a new doctor, etc. It would just be the most complicated thing ever if it didn't happen before he deploys... not that it isn't already. It doesn't help that hubby will be gone for a couple WEEKS soon and then it'll be the holiday season and things will get crazy and hectic since we'll be trying to celebrate holidays and prepare for the deployment. Ugh. this leads me to my next point....
hubby leaves soon. I hate saying that. I hate thinking about it. I hate that he has to go. I think about how miserable I felt (feeling like I didn't have anyone to hang out with or anything the ENTIRE time he was gone for only 40 days) and now relating that to a FULL DEPLOYMENT! ugh. let's just say i'm not looking forward to it... but I know it's going to be here before I know it! I mean it's almost October now. Soon he'll leave again for another underway for a couple weeks. Then it'll time for us to go to Chicago for my friend's wedding I'm in. Then shortly after that, it'll be Thanksgiving. Then it'll be December and time will be taken up by Christmas shopping and solidifying plans for the holidays and buying the last minute essentials for his deployment. Then actual Christmas and then New Years and then he's gone shortly after that! (*oh if anyone feels i'm disobeying OPSEC rules, I'm not. I know because I haven't said dates or even a time frame or a range of dates. It has all be in relation to events or holidays but never an actual time frame other than how long the deployment is, which everyone knows anyways.)
Oh! the other thing that happened was that our roommate moved out. He told hubby as we were preparing to leave for our weekend getaway. He said he didn't know when but it would be soon, so hubby assumed 2 weeks since that is the standard agreed upon time of notice. When we got back, we heard from a mutual friend that he had already moved most of his stuff out. We were a little more than upset. First of all, he never actually TOLD ME; he told hubby and then hubby told me. Then we found out from someone else that his stuff was practically gone. And lastly, that was definitly NOT 2 weeks notice. Hubby and I knew he wasn't going to live with us forever. I mean we're married and he's a single guy in his mid-twenties about to get out of the Navy. We're not dumb, nor would we have been mad or offended if he had just come to us and said "hey, I'm moving out." But not giving us 2 weeks notice was not cool. We've always been fair in terms of rent and the house and let him know what was going on and tried to include him in anything we were doing. But we were just hurt that he couldn't have come to us sooner... and if it truly was a last minute decision then let us come to an agreement together. I mean we're all adults... let's handle it like such instead of moving out behind our backs.
anyways... some good news for you now! Hubby and I bought tickets to a Carolina Panther's game. We're really excited! He's never been to a Panthers game before (his fav NFL team) and I've never been to a pro-anything game before! I can't wait!
Alright so I do sincerely apologize for the serious neglect of my blog! I hope to keep you all (or should I say the few of you) informed in a much more consistant manor. Thank you to anyone who actually does read this blog. I appreciate it. Until next time...
(which I hope will be sooner rather than later)
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