day 3 - favorite show

Day 3 - a picture of the case of my favorite show....


well this is hard because my favorite show changes all the time! I get into phases and obsessions with different shows. So right now, my flavor is The Tudors. And plus... Jonathan Rys Meyers is too hott for words! The show in general is a little racy; definitly not for the eyes of a teenager. But most enjoyable for a lonely housewife with not much to do who's looking to indulge in a little eye candy with romance and a great plot. I've been watching all the episodes on Netflix through the XBox, but have found that the last 2 seasons are only available on DVD. boo...

What do you do....

.... when you become jealous of your friends' friendship with another person?

You see, I have a fellow navy wife whom has always said that we'd be each other's wife during this deployment since both our hubbies are on the same ship. But in recent months, she has gone out with this other wife a lot more than me. She and this other wife have been out three times this week. I know that I am in no position to tell her who to be friends with or how often she can see them, and i would NEVER do that anyways... but I am feeling like I am being replaced so to speak. I feel left out or forgotten or that I've become uncool to hang out with. Like an outcast. Literally the last time I had a chance to hang out with her was at her house with about 8 other women. I showed up early to help her fix food, and stayed late and cleaned up and did the dishes by hand even! That was a month ago. I have seen her once when at a friends house for dinner, again with 4 other girls.

Am I being crazy? I know i'm feeling jealous and I shouldnt be obsessing over it like this, but I feel like she's been the one true, honest, and great friend I have here. I've only lived in this area for 3 years. I don't really know anyone else. So please, help a girl out. I don't want to say anything because I think it would make things awkward or make the situation worse, but at the same time I don't want to lose my friendship with her. What do I do? I miss her. And I wish we were hanging out like she and this other wife do. I always have a great time hanging out with her, but I feel like we don't see each other a lot anymore. So... am I crazy? should I let this go? Should I say something? ugh... my husband's away and I don't want to lose one of the only friendships I have here. Then I would feel completely alone. any advice?

day 2 : a pic of you and the person you're closest to for the longest

The person I've been closest to for the longest is my sister. This picture was taken a couple years back for my high school graduation.

day 1

A picture of me with 15 facts:




1. I am the youngest of two in my family.
2. I am from the north (yes, I'm a yank living in the south)
3. I was diagnosed with PCOS 2 days before my birthday in 2008
4. I work as a nanny for a family with 4 boys
5. I have 3 beagles and they are my children! lol
6. I bought a house with my husband at the age of 19
7. I dropped out of college to marry my sailor (and it was the best decision I ever made)
8. I've never broken a bone in my body. ever. (knock on wood)
9. I hate cleaning
10. I LOVE chocolate
11. I miss being able to take a vacation whenever I want to
12. I just got my passport with my married name
13. I used to be a size 0 in high school (very unhealthy)
14. I had a miscarriage Oct 22nd 2010 and my husband was gone so it literally was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through by myself
15. I love to sleep in.

30 days in pictures

I got this from a fellow blogger. I will comment with a link to her page.



Day 01 - A picture of yourself with 15 facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most screwed up things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

V-Day blues???

Not really. I've been doing pretty well since deployment has us apart this Valentine's Day. I admit, when I went to work this morning and saw my boss and her husband sitting at the counter reading the paper with a big boquet of red roses in between them, I felt a little sad. But more jealousy which I'm sure I would've felt no matter if hubby was here or not, because unless I flat out tell him I want roses or I buy them for myself, I don't get roses. It's fine though because hubby does spoil me in little ways all year long so today isn't a huge deal to me. I just miss his presence more than usual, which I think is to be expected.

anyways, I got a little choked up even seeing the boys hand their mother a single long stemmed rose, not because I wanted my hubby to be there or to give me roses, but because it was just so sweet and thoughtful! My boss' hubby did a great job on Valentine's Day this year!

So tonight, I was invited to dinner with my boss and her family and I'm going to go. Because I need to get out on this Valentine's Day and because they actually care about me, and isn't that what this holiday is about? Spending time with loved ones and showing them how much you care? So instead of wallowing in self-pity like I really thought I'd be doing, I'm doing really well and even going out tonight with friends. No... scratch that. Family. They really have made me feel like family. So today I'll celebrate Valentine's Day with Family and enjoy spending time with people I care about. :)

Snow day?!

okay, so I live in VA and the cities here don't know how to handle snow nor have the budget to get themselves the equipment to handle snow. So with 2 inches on the ground, most of the schools in the area were closed. Usually I work all day when school is out, but today, God shined his grace down on me! *aaaahhhhhhhhhhh* The grandmother took the kids for the day and I GOT THE DAY OFF!!!!!! Totally exciting! I got to sleep in, stay in my pj's all day and do nothing but watch movies on the Starz channels. It was glorious!

The unglorious part about my day was discovering hubby has spent MORE in this port call than the last one! he spent $250 in the last one, and now $290 in this one! When will he learn! I told him in an email that if he kept this up, I might have to start selling some things to compensate. And I might just start with his mustang convertible that he loves so much. I'm hoping that'll get through to him. The car is paid off, so I could totally sell it since I have a complete power of attorny. :)

On the baby front: I had an appointment with a "specialist" yesterday. I put quotations around that because going into the appointment I did not believe he would be worth much good because he's a Navy doctor and I'm not really sure they can qualify him as a "specialist" based on my past experiences with Navy doctors who call themselves "specialist". But this guy was for real. Dr. S is what I'll call him. I was asked a BUNCH of questions and since hubby is deployed I couldn't accurately give his family medical history (i called my MIL to ask and I'll tell DR. S next time I see him). But after the questions, he did a full physical exam of my and my insides. Then after I got dressed, we talked about what he'd like to do next: more tests. Who'd have thunk it?! lol So he put my on Provera to induce bleeding. Once I start bleeding I call this one woman who'll order blood and urine tests as well as an HSG test. The urine test has to be done 24 prior to the HSG test. But I can't have the HSG test until I'm done bleeding, so it's all a matter of waiting and timing. I call once I start, pray I stop before I have my urine and blood tests and then go to the hospital radiology the next day for my HSG test. As many of my fellow IFer's will sympathize with me about the HSG test, let me fill the rest of you in. First off, I'm not sure how to pronounce, let alone spell, the full name of this test. But the accronym is HSG. What happens is they stick a cathedar up my coochy and inject dye into me. Thent hey take Xrays of my pelvic region to see if my tubes have any blockages, or my uterus is oddly shaped, or if there's army men up there that are protecting my eggs like Fort Knox (and succeeding) or something. Now here's the complications. First off, the tests are only scheduled on Thursdays. Thursdays are bad for me because I take O to therapy and then take him to school. I usually take the mom's car for this which doesn't have DoD stickers. So even if I were to schedule the test for after I'm down taking O to school, I can't get through the gates to get to the hospital for the test to be done. Secondly, on the sheet of paper they give you explaining everything, they RECCOMEND taking 800mg of Motrin one hour before the procedure. They even describe is as "uncomfortable". You know what that translates to me? It's fucking painful! ugh! And I asked Dr S if it would affect the rest of my day and he said no. I'll just have some "mild" cramps and need to wear a pad afterwards for "unusual discharge". yeah... okay! I have to go through this "uncomfortable" test by myself on a day that is impossible for me to schedule it to begin with and then go around the rest of the day with "mild" cramps?! yeah... I highly doubt it will go smoothly.

I also found out that Dr S cannot legally discuss hubby's seman analysis with me unless he give me written consent. And of course it has to be their own specialize form. So now I have to express mail this one piece of paper out there to him, have him sign it, and then trust he'll send it immediately back? again.... yeah, okay! Dr S you're nuts if you think my hubby will remember to do such a thing! It'll be quicker to just wait for him to come back and sign the damn paper in person!

So after some bumps in the road and some nervous about what's to come, I got a nice snow day today to relax and not even give it one thought. It was good to not worry today and just do something mindless today like watch TV. Tomorrow it's back to the grind and then the weekend to get things accomplished.