Another paper bracelet

So since my post this morning I have received yet another paper bracelet from the ER. After I posted this morning I had a very small lunch and then proceeded to have crazy intense side pains. I took pain medication and after an hour of waiting for the pain to subside, I decided something wasn't right and drove to the hospital. first off, I wasn't supposed to drive myself because I'm not supposed to be operating heavy machinery while taking my pain meds. Oh well, cuz all the people I know have jobs and my husband is gone! Well I got halfway there and swear I was going to puke, so I pulled over as quickly and safely as possible. I didn't end up throwing up but the pain was so strong I started crying right then and there on the side of the highway! It was awful! Once I felt I could go on, I jumped back in my car and made it to the hospital. Of course it was packed. I got there about 2:30. I checked in and proceeded to get my vitals taken at triage where I started crying again because the pain was just too much. I was told I still had to go back out into the lobby and wait to be called back. Of course "they'd try to get to me as soon a possible". PPPPSSSSHHHHHH! ya right! I sat in the lobby almost 2 full hours before my name was called! Then I had to repeat my story to a nurse, corpsman, and doctor. Then I waited. And then I waited some more. Then finally I was told they needed me to give a urine sample. I thought, "Finally! They're going to actually test and treat me!". I did my thing and was told that they'd probably give me some extra pain meds and send me on my way but I wasn't allowed to drive because I would take this new pain med at the hospital. So now I'm racking my brain of anyone who could come pick me up and wouldn't mind. I thought about my good friend Lisa who essentially stayed with me all yesterday. She was kind enough to oblige and came to the hospital to get me. But the docs weren't done yet of course. Even after she showed up, we waited for a long while before anyone came in! Then of course there was a shift change so I got a new nurse, and corpsman. Thankfully I still had the same doctor. So he came back and told me that there wasn't any new information, just that there was still a lot of blood in my urine which meant that the stone was still in my kidney. So I got a shot of pain meds in my butt. Being a girl who doesn't like needles this was scary to think about. But it wasn't that bad after all. I guess because my butt is so..... fleshy. yeah... thats the word I'll use right now. lol But now the problem is the whole not being able to drive thing. My car was parked in the ER lot. How was I to get it home if Lisa was driving me home? And if these 2 days give any indication on how I was to feel until my stone has passed, how am I going to drive myself to and from work being on my pain meds? If I don't take them so I can drive, how will I get through my day without keeling over? Do they really expect me to stay home all day, every day and not go anywhere without going CRAZY?!?! According to the docs, it can take up to 4 WEEKS for a stone to pass!!! ugh! This is not going to be fun. As unsafe as it sounds, I will probably end up cheating and going out while on my pain meds. I just need to be very careful and I will probably not be out too late. Either way I have found that this searing pain in my side will come and go. I just hope this all passes quickly so I can just move on and be normal for once.

On a brighter note, I got an email from my hubby today! It actually came to my blackberry while I was sitting in the waiting room. Now I'm not complain... well actually I guess I kind of am. Anyways, this was the first email I've gotten from him since he left at the beginning of this week. While I was glad to hear from him, I was a little disappointed too. I had emailed him Tuesday night. And then was too tired to email him Wednesday night. Then Thursday all this kidney stone stuff occurred and I just relaxed most of the day. But I did email him details of everything that happened once I got home and was settled. Well this email I got today had this one sentence in it... "Hey I'm glad we know what was causing the pain." then he went on to tell me other things about life on the boat! Like I said I am glad I got an email at all, but come on!!!! I have been in pain for hours upon hours and feeling guilty about leaving my boss in a bind because I couldn't be at work, and I was drugged up and this is seriously the worst pain I've ever felt in my life and he says one little thing about it. I was sort of hoping for a little bit more concern on his end. I mean I'm the kind of person that doesn't like to make a fuss over myself. So when I say I think its time to see a doctor or go to the ER, then you know it's serious. So I kind of wished he was a little bit more concerned for me, but like I said, I am glad he emailed me. Also in this email, he told me the whole division shaved their heads! ugh! I swear if he walks off that boat with a bald head I'm sending him back until it grows back. I love my husband, I really do. But he does not have an attractive head. There are only a few guys out there that can pull of a completely bald head before their senior discounts kick in. My husband is not one of them. But at least he did it now, because I'm sure by the time they get back it'll be grown out (thank heaven!). He also gave his mailing address so I can send him stuff! I'm so excited! Except I can't drive to take it to the post office, and we're pretty much broke because I bought plane tickets this month to go to Chicago for a wedding I'm in. So now I need ideas of things I can put in a box to him that doesn't cost anything. I plan on making some food like brownies or cookies, but if any of you ladies have any ideas of what I could put in there I'd appreciate the ideas! Thanks gals! Well, I think it's time to get off the rollercoaster ride for tonight. I'm beat. But I get to start it all over again tomorrow. Night all!

Wanted: True Friendship

So day 2 of my kidney stone process has barely begun and I'm already in pain. But the pain isn't in my side, it's lower. I'm assuming this means that the stone is passing into my bladder which I hope means I can pass it soon and have this whole ordeal over with! ugh!

It was nice to have someone with me yesterday. Lisa was kind enough to stay pretty much the whole day with me. Now today.... is another story. I got up at like 7:30 only God knows why! Then fed the dogs and such, grabbed the paper, read some articles and took a shower. I even started some laundry. But it's 10am and I'm bored and wanting to not be alone today. Now I just checked my facebook and I have found a friend of mine could be completely moved in to a new place in Charleston SC by this time next year! I always new they would move there because she has divulged this information to me before. But since I consider her one of my BEST FRIENDS, I guess I wish she had told me in person and I didn't have to find out on facebook with everyone else. She has a new job and such so I understand she can't get together as much anymore because she's got longer hours now. But still I sometimes feel like I'm just a convenience friendship to her. Like she only talks to me when her hubby is about to leave or while he's gone. I really wish I could meet some girls who would be my friend no matter who was around or not. I understand that when your husband is home you want to spend time with him. Believe me I get it because yes I admit I have not made plans with girlfriends because I knew my hubby was in town. So yes I get it. But, whether my hubby is around or not, I try to make plans with my friends as soon as we're both available. Maybe I have too high of standards, or maybe I just haven't found the right friends. I don't know. I just wish people could grow up, be mature and be a true friend in every sense of the word.

Well now that I have ranted I have a headache. I've already taken a percoset this morning so I can't take another until 3pm. But maybe I'll take some tylenol and take a nap. It's not like any one's going to call me or ask to hang out today. No one ever does.

"A successfuly ER trip" an oxymoron????

So, last night starting at about 10pm I experienced severe pain in my right side. I took some tylenol to try and get some good sleep. Well, that did not happen! I did not get much sleep at all. I attempted to go to work this morning and I just broke down in front of my boss. I felt AWEFUL about it! But my boss is absolutely wonderful and so understanding. She told me to go get checked out and get better. So I drove myself home (harder to do than i thought). My friend Lisa brought me to the ER because i just couldn't stop crying because of the pain in my right side, the guilt i felt over my job, missing my hubby (because of course this happens right after he leaves!) and just over-all exhaustion. We got to the ER at like 7:45. I was taken back right away because of my pain, plus it wasn't that busy. I had a urine test, an ultrasound of my side, and then a CT scan. At the end of all the tests I found out I have a Kidney Stone causing my pain. So at this point its 11am and I've been doing tests and waiting for 3 hours. I hadn't been hungry so I barely ate this morning. So after all that I was tired and super hungry. Lisa and I were thinking I might have appendicitis which would've required surgery obviously and I wouldn't have been able to eat! So thankfully I didn't have that because I was starving! So The ER gave me 2 prescriptions; percocet for pain and a dialation medication to relax my bladder so that the stone will pass easier (ewwwwww). Thankfully I had a very good friend with me to help me out all day. She drove me to the ER and back home again. We had lunch and we both took naps because we were so tired. So all in all, I was seen quickly in the ER, I wasn't alone, I got medication to help me feel better, and I had a nap. Today was a decent day, except for the severe pain part. But honestly, is it an oxymoron to say you had a successful trip to the ER??? Well, whatever you believe or feel, I am glad to have a friend to accompany me so I didn't feel so lonely in such a crazy experience. I've never had kindey stones before or felt pain like that. So I'm glad I got a diagnosis and a treatment plan. I think about how long it took to diagnose my PCOS and I was so afraid I was going to be the crazy girl with the mysterious pain in her right side. So I really am just glad to know what was causing it and how I can get better. I guess, thankful is the word of the day.

GLEE - Il FlashMob

New Leaf!

So my hubby left this morning. He'll be gone quite awhile. I cried so hard last night and I cried again once I got home from dropping him off at the ship. I probably should have taken the day off today but I guess it was as much a blessing as a curse to have had to go to work today. so while this is my day to be sulking and mopy, I know I will be better tomorrow because life does go on.

So this entry is named "New leaf" because of my last statement: "life goes on". So starting tomorrow, I WILL get up extra early and work out. And tonight I even made a healthy dinner or stir fry veggies (zuccini, squash, carrots, and onions) with some chicken that I had my hubs throw in a Crockpot yesterday. There is no more soda in my house; all my veggies are fresh and locally grown & bought; my meal are prepared without oils and butters and such. I need to feel healthy and feel good about what's going into my body in order to feel good about my body and my life in general. So, thus the new leaf! This weekend I hope to clean out our office and get rid of a lot of junk as well donate a bunch of items to the Salvation Army as well as rip all my old CD's onto my new computer so I can get rid of them too! So, to say the least I have things to do to keep me busy. While I miss my husband and enjoy thinking about him and actively missing him, I know that if I linger too long on the subject it will dominate my mind and my day will turn for the worse because I will miss him too much. I mean no offense to anyone, especially my hubby, in saying that but sometimes when you think about just ONE person for too long your mood changes. Sometimes it even interfers with progress you were making. This is what I am trying to say. Anyways. I also am hoping to keep more up to date with this blog. I know I know! I've said that before and I do well for like a week and then don't post for a month or so! But I swear!!!! I will try to do better to post more often. Like I said, anyways! It is time for me to go to bed. I need to get up early to workout and then do my usual routine before work!